Grieving Is Exhausting

I know I have not written that much lately and that is simply because grieving is exhausting. Whenever my family experiences a loss, my mom always says this and there is so much undeniable truth in that statement. Grief consumes you–mind, body, and soul.

I have experienced loss prior to this and nothing has compared to the exhaustion I have felt with the loss of Shawn. I am not sure if it is because he was my significant other or if it is due to the nature of his death. It likely is a combination of both.  The amount and vast range of emotion I feel in a single day (sadness, joy, anger, guilt, fear) is overwhelming at times. While my whole body feels so, so tired at night, I still have trouble falling asleep. My mind does not tire. Coping with this, in addition to now working full time, is bound to deplete me.

During this journey of grieving, I am learning the importance of managing the expectations I have for myself. I am learning that I may not accomplish everything I want to each day. I am learning to be easier on myself. I am learning to take care of me. One day at a time.

 

 

4 thoughts on “Grieving Is Exhausting

  1. Allan & Jane Lorge says:

    Lindsey, reading through your blogs is inspirational and reflects thoughts that one would expect from someone well beyond your years…..so many of us do not understand what is really important in life until we gain wisdom with age or lose someone or something very close to us……Jane and I can relate to so many of your thoughts as we’ve gained that wisdom with age, and we feel so sad for you as you are learning first hand what is really important through Shawn’s death……true love and maintaining relationships are indeed exhausting, yet so worth it in the long run……your love for Shawn and his love for you will never end, as someday you will again be together….in the meantime, lean on those closest to you to help you through and indeed take care of yourself, it’s what he would want and what we all want for you…..being easier on yourself and living your life to its fullest will honor his memory and hopefully lessen your grieve as time goes by…..thanks so much for sharing your thoughts with all of us….so proud of you!

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    • mysavinggracie says:

      Thank you so much, Allan and Jane! Your words and the cards you continue to send mean so much to me. I am quickly learning how blessed I am to have the support I do from my family and friends. Love you both! ❤️

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  2. Gail says:

    Lindsey, thank you for writing this blog. Unfortunately, I can relate to all these feelings so well. I lost my 22 year old daughter to suicide ten moths ago. This blog may be healing for you to write, but it’s also healing for me to read, so I thank you for that.

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    • mysavinggracie says:

      Thank you Gail for reading and commenting. I am so sorry to hear about your daughter, too. It’s helping me so much to be open and talk about this with people, especially with those who can relate to these thoughts and feelings.

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